February of 2017

never thought i'd come back to this blog but it seems like i don't have a platform to just write without having to worry that someone will read this

perhaps i thought i found myself; that i was so comfortable with who i was to the point that i'd never feel lonely even if i were alone - in fact, i preferred to be alone than to be with the company of superficial people

but it seems like i lost myself - who have i become? i always thought that i was strong as my own individual and i'd never lose who i was but these two weeks have proven me so wrong

feeling lonely though i'm never alone, forgetting how to be happy though that's my only goal in life. all i want right now is your validation and acceptance, though i never needed it from anyone else

i'm lost, please find me